How I Came to Fear French Doors

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How I Came to Fear French Doors
I have a love-hate relationship with French doors. Before the terrifying incident which I’m about to relate—an incident that has left me, I’m ashamed to say, “door-phobic,” I loved French doors. Paris doors to be exact. The external doors in Paris are elegant. They are of polished wood and gleam blood red, royal blue, emerald and burgundy. They boast carved lions, birds, kings, garlands and goddesses. With their weighty brass knobs and knockers, Paris doors convey history, strength and gravitas. Yes, gravitas. Like French people, they are, on first encounter, more formal than friendly. French doors in their formidable beauty, do not beckon. They bar. It is the digicode, those secret four numbers that when entered, produce a discreet click that allows you into the inner courtyard or entryway where most often you will need to open yet another door before entering the apartment building itself. Once inside the building, you confront the front door of your apartment and if lucky, your key will open this door which is most often old— such as 300 years old— first opened by someone in a powdered wig wearing perfumed leather gloves. These doors, thick as brick, always seem to need some trick to open them. Perhaps a slight push in or out, or an extra turn of the key, or a wee wiggle of the knob one direction or other. Several years ago I was newly divorced and so free of domestic chores and with kids grown and house sold, I rented a Paris apartment for four exquisite months to inaugurate my single life. I arrived smack dab in the center of the Marais on the rue de Sevigné and on New Year’s Day. How fitting is that! Soon after arrival, I went to buy some groceries—wine, bread, flowers and wearing my blue beret and hurrying back to my apartment in the cold winter air, I felt joyously Parisian. I opened the exterior door, then the courtyard door but couldn’t open the door to my own apartment. No matter which way I turned the key, it would not open. Hearing music and laughter from the apartment above, I ran upstairs and knocked on their door. I knocked hard, hoping to find a kindly neighbor who might know the door-key trick. I kept knocking loudly for a good while but got no answer simply because they were having too much French fun that drowned out my knocking. At last a young woman came to the door and kindly and quickly went downstairs with me and opened my door. I was embarrassed and even more so because I had to ask her to do this two more times until at last, I learned the trick of pulling the door hard toward me as I sharply turned the key to the right then the left! With a loud, sudden click, the door would open and from then on, whenever I heard that quick click, this happy door victory made me smile. Now you need to know that I wouldn’t be writing about doors at all if it weren’t for that night when I returned from a party quite late and shut the bedroom door only to feel the door handle (shaped like a sideways letter S.) come off in my hand and I know just what you’re thinking. If I was alone in my apartment why did I bother to close the bedroom door? My answer is “the longstanding habit of a mom.” In America, we have a saying: “When one door closes, another one opens.” This is not true. What is true is the French saying: “Il faut qu’une porte soit ouverte ou fermée.” A door must be kept either open or shut. But I digress. It was past midnight and I worked anxiously to shove the door handle back in the hole but it wouldn’t hold. My bedroom door stayed shut as a coffin cover. This might have been something I could have dealt with in the morning except what about that pesky nighttime bathroom visit? And worse, what about my growing claustrophobia? I went over my options: ✓ I could call for help but my phone was in the living room. ✓ I could email someone but my computer was in the living room. ✓ I could find a tool to open the door but my tools were in the kitchen. So here I was, as the French say, a woman of “50 and several crumbs” in a weird predicament. So with panic rising like a fever, I did the only thing left to do: use my high school French to shout for help. My bedroom looked out onto a courtyard surrounded on all sides by the other apartment units. “AU SECOURS!” I screamed into the courtyard. “AU SECOURS! AU SECOURS!!!!” In the cold night my screams echoed against the stone building. I screamed again and again until at last I heard a man say in a bored voice, “What’s the matter?” I saw a fifty-ish man with a mustache and wearing a maroon satin robe. He was peering from the little open stairwell window to my window. His accent told me he wasn’t French but perhaps Eastern European and his first language was maybe Romanian or Bulgarian or some other language you can never identify. The man was smoking a cigarette. “I AM LOCKED IN MY BEDROOM!” I shouted, holding the door handle up as proof. “MY BEDROOM DOOR WON’T OPEN!” The man took a long drag on his cigarette then with an infuriating languor said, “Eh?” “PLEASE,” I cried, “I DON’T HAVE MY PHONE, PLEASE CALL THE FIRE DEPARTMENT TO GET ME OUT!” [caption id=”attachment_38956″…

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Maxine Rose Schur is the author of award-winning children’s books and travel essays. Her inspiring travel memoir "Places in Time" was named Best Travel Book of the Year by the North American Travel Journalists Association and the Society of American Travel Writers.


  • Mary Blocksma
    2020-09-22 08:06:57
    Mary Blocksma
    What a wonderful story! Took me back to Paris. Actually, I also had the handle to my bedroom door come loose and did I ever panic! Until I remembered I could go through my closet to the next room (old house). But now I keep a screwdriver in my dresser drawer..